It's true I do imbue my blue unto myself.

I'm terribly moody. I just spent 2 hours at the convenience store because I'm too nice to people. I was pissed. I'm so tired, but I don't think I can sleep. I haven't been able to sleep at all lately, no matter how tired I am. I had to get a new phone because my ex turned mine off. My job is very boring, and all I do is stand there all day. I'm bored with my life. I need something exciting. 

My hair is ugly. It's mousy brown. I had to dye it for my new job, because my hair wasn't "natural looking" enough. I hate it.

I'm feeling very useless right now. I'm horribly tired and I have nothing to do. I feel like I'm wasting my life. I need to leave soon. I'm going no where here. 

So, I'm not pregnant. Thank baby Jesus, because it probably wouldn't have had a daddy to help care for it. I hate men. I was in a horrid mood tonight. I'm thinking about taking off to New Orleans after my job is finished. There's nothing for me here. I'm not going anywhere, and I don't think I will unless I leave. I'm so depressed I can't even cry. I'm sick of guys wanting me as some sort of trophy. I'm sick of hanging out with homeless people, and people that can't even help themselves. I'm sick of people that complain about having no where to live, but spend their entire paycheck on weed. I'm sick of being around drugs all the time. I miss being around the one person I don't feel like I have the right to miss.

I think I'm pregnant. Someone smack me upside the head. I got the best phone call last night. I was in the best mood, until tonight. Completely out of the blue I got horribly depressed. I need to make myself sleep more. In fact, that's what I should do right now.